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From my childhood i learned Catechism and believed in God. But later, i had various doubts and ones i lost this believe. It took me long time, looking for the answer, are there any proofs of God Existence and why do people believe. There where many answers, but only one of them was proof for me, that constrained me to Believe again and to understand much more - Historical fact about J.C., Born and death (years are counted after Him and before, at least in my countries Historical books).
And to say the truth, after some time and hard experience I lost such a big trust in God (even if He helped me) and began to think more by my self what to do. Think good by your self, why there are so many miseries, innocent people are suffering and world is so unfair.
I don't blame God because of everything, but sometimes it is difficult to understand Him, why he left this one, who is the most guilty.
Anyway. My thoughts are just my thoughts. And I do mistakes, like everybody.
If the King would find him self between pure people (pure-minded), without his status, they will be degrading and making fun from him, as more, as it is possible. To feel "kings" by them self.
What i meant, is very common with my thought about self-dirt and goodness. And it can be, that i was one of those pure-minded people by my self, not understanding it.
Very painful, looking at human, who has to get dirty together between pigs. While pigs are admiring the view.
I had such an idea looking one video clip, where very nice and good singer is dancing in dirty water (mud preferable word) with other dancers. It looked like she is not glad about it. Like her eyes said: "look at me dirty, now. Well, it is what you wanted."
People like such video clips, where other are dancing in mud, but looking at others they don't imagine them self in there place. Would they be glad doing the same.
That's how it is very easy to become a pig and very difficult to understand that you are a pig. It can be, that i was such a pig by my self, when i was not clever enough.
Can pig understand, that she is a pig (in bad meaning)?
Only when she will become human. And can lose this understanding becoming pig again.
Don't give anything precious, to those who can't understand, or understand, but don't know how to use it. Because, they won't value and waste it trampling you.
It's in my words, how i understand the expression from Bible about pigs and dogs. Mt 7,6
If you will read this advice in Bible, you may have such a question: who are those pigs and dogs? As i understand, they are not worth to be called humans. They understand or know, that what they are doing is wrong and still are doing it. They can read it and still won't understand. Can pig understand, that she is a pig? As i mentioned, only when she becomes human, then she can understand, that she was a pig. But how to make from them humans? That you could give them something Good and they could value it. That is a question.
You won't be herald in your own country.
I don't know if this expression is from the Bible, but i heard it somewhere. It is not my proposition, but i understood not long time ago, how it can be. And it is not only about Jesus or his apprentices. It's about people, who want to do something special, what no one did before, and it is difficult to understand for others, that it can be (or is) Good. And since a lot of people know you in your country, it is easy for your enemies or jealous people to spoil everything for you. Cause they know your weaknesses and usually such people are close to you. Maybe thats why Jesus left his home, where he was born. Did many miracles and many Good jobs in His life. And died because of his enemies.
Don't promise anything to anybody (talking about marriage).
It doesn't mean, that i say don't marry. I mentioned about promises, that we don't know the future and etc. Here i wanted to write what thought i had, when i read marriage commitment (words), that should be spelled in Church. Maybe some things has changed, but as know, religious things don't change so easy (at least in my country). I won't write here those words, but it is clear enough to understand, that it is a promise. I think, that it's enough blessing from our Creator, but why we have to promise? And as it is written in Bible, that what God connected, it's not for humans to separate. So, it means only God can do this. But did you heard anything about divorces in Church?
People often mix where is Light and where is evil. And, even, when they know, very often they can't stand somebody, who is better, making him or her dirty.
People, seeing in someones goodness self-dirt, feel bad and have very big temptation to make him or her the same, as they are. Or at least spatter and tell lies, if it's impossible.
Shadows gather where is Light.
This expression is not mine. I found it somewhere in internet looking for information about Saint Walburga. I was reading in a book "GREAT SECRETS OF PAST" about witch's (whitch's) day Walpurgis Night. In my native language there are more interesting information and coincidences. And what was very interesting for me, that i haven't found anything about witch (whitch) with any similar name in EN. Only reading this (in Wikipedia): "Saint Walpurga (variants include Walpurgis, Valborg, Walburge, Wealdburg, Valderburger, Valpuriarticle)", i even began to have doubts, if there was any Saint Walburga.
That's how evil is fighting with Goodness, mixing everything. And bad people are using Good or Saint signs and names for pretending to be kind (in my native language there is such a witch (whitch) Valpurga and Saint Valburga). That's how sometimes you become so messt up and don't know where is Good or bad.
Also, i thought, that witch (whitch) should be devil's wife. But i have a doubt, if devil wants to have ugly wife :)
